I’m not a perfect person. There are many things I wish I didn’t do and wish I could change but I continue to learn.

So today I’ve decided to fish as deep down as possible into my own subconscious to assess myself  in the belief that I may able to change those bad habits (should they be categorized as one).. I felt like lying down by the side of the trail and remembering it all, but I could only note a few.

As I grow older and wiserrrrrr – I’ve learned to accept the things I cannot change, have the courage to change the things I can, and have the wisdom to know the difference.

So, here are few of the things/habits I want to change:

1. I’m afraid of rejection… extremely afraid! (I’m spoiled – some people say)
2. I’m afraid – petrified – mortified – horrified – of insects… all of them… I agree with you – they are cute…. but from a distance 😉
3. I snap every time I make a mistake…and I felt like banging my head against the wall for making one.
4. I freaked out every time I deliver a speech… and I tend to smuck whoever is beside me…
5. I can’t sleep the night before I travel especially if traveling on an airplane…
6. I’m afraid of losing the people I love. I freaked out when the people I care a lot get sick. I care a lottttttt (brit accent :P)
7. I dislike shaking people’s hands because I’m worried that they  had just picked their nose or they didn’t wash their hands after using the toilet.
8. I smell the glass before drinking 😀 😀 and I wash the can before drinking sodas
9. I am always fascinated by vampires and I can’t wait to be one of them 😛
10. When I cry – I cry for hours <sigh> 😦 😦 😦
11. I’m not mean but I often do it – intentionally – so people won’t fall in love with me
12. I can like a person on a first date ❤ ❤ ❤ and I get too attached easily 😦 😦
13. I’m too nice and naive at times – and I hate it.. yeah
14. I can’t sleep if I lie. I prefer to not answer or hide it most of the time to avoid lying
15. I smile a lot – I laugh like a child – I laugh at small things and silly things… I can’t help it!
16. While dining out – I chose the restaurant because of the quality of the servers by how they look and how tidy they are
17. I’m overly meticulous – If I can have a white environment – I mean super white… yeah…
18. I shutdown after 4pm.. I lagged… response is as slow as clouds on a windless day…
19. I’m extremely forgetful… selective memory…
20. I don’t take criticism gracefully… I’m too sensitive… I dislike the fact that I’m a Cancerian….

Old habits die hard – but these are a part and parcel of life that we must learn to take it to the chin and learn how to change it. It doesn’t mean we discount ourselves for the sake of others but if we can change it – change it – because we want to improve and ultimately become a better version of ourselves!